OnceUponAWinter

but I'm surrounded by people

It's alright, you say. Nothing will hurt you, I've got you. Don't be sad. I love you.

Well I'm sorry Mister, my depression isn't going to pack it's bags and leave just because you love me.

To create art requires emotion. Always we're told this, shown this.

I think that's why I make the best poems, paint/draw the best pictures and play the best music when I'm sad or lonely. I'm not 100% sure about this though, I don't know the inside of my head well enough to be sure. And I'm not sure I want to.

I guess I'm trying to make something beautiful out of something heartbreaking. Something positive (normally) out of something negative. It could be why there's so many sad love/break up songs, I don't know, I've never written a song. I don't think I could. Maybe that's why artists are always portrayed as troubled and mentally ill, maybe that's why they don't try to change the stereotype. Because art needs emotion, and the easiest emotion to work with is heart break.

Or maybe I'm just melodramatic....

i just saw the city of bones trailer!!!! Im going to explode, it looks so awesome!!! oadfkcnvpaibdcpaiBdcpkaxb

And Jamie Campbell-Bower and Lily Collins are so so pretty and great actors and I really really hope they've done the book justice...

10/10/12

Today, I smacked a door into my boob. I don't know how I managed it. I do know that it hurt an awful bloody lot.
I also spent 5 minutes thinking I broke the kettle before I realised I hadn't even plugged it in.
I wrote I am bred instead of I am bored which lead to my friend saying that I could be bread if he was a giant but that'd mean he'd have to grind me...

to be continued...